Don’t use mental illnesses as an excuse to fuck up. There are plenty of people that function in life with “depression”. Writing posts for your peers to see isn’t going to mend your problems or fix the broken. You have to do that shit yourself. Nobody’s going to help you. Once you stop looking for pity and attention and find out the source of why you feel the way you do, is when you can work on it and achieve nirvana. Stop blaming it all on a chemical imbalance that only medication can fix, or saying it is unfixable. Everything psychologically is fixable, or can become a low grade mental illness with the help of professionals. The first step begins with you. So stop being so negative and appreciate the shit you have in life and get the fuck over yourself because we all know that you’re not going to do shit but cry and whine about life and it won’t get you anywhere besides a hospital where no one gives two shits about anything but making money and then going home to their normal families.

Dear Baby,

How one whole year has come and gone is absolutely beyond me. Time speeds by around us so quickly it seems like twelve months have zoomed by in half the time, but it seems as if this has been my reality for so much longer. I can hardly remember what it’s like to not have you in my life.

It still makes me laugh that in the beginning months of our relationship, my family would see us together and be surprised when they found out we were only together for five months, nine months. ‘You seem like you’ve been together forever,’ they’d say. ‘You seem like you’ve been together for five or ten years.’ Hearing it would fill me with such a sense of pride that I am in the very relationship I imagined since I was a child. I was hoping to have that sweetheart type of relationship, and I’m very glad to know that I have one.

There is so much that I want to say, but I have no idea how to categorize it into something that would make sense to what I feel for you. So much has happened in just this one year, but having the constant comfort of you by my side has made me feel like I can do anything. I have more hope and expectation for myself now than ever before. I have always wanted to pave for myself the best life possible, but I am so humbled to have you here — that having you here has made me see beyond myself. My goals are now yours and your goals are now mine, and I am not ashamed of saying that I would prefer to build a life with you than to try and strive for greatness on my own. I see us as a power couple. I see us as the couple that everyone wants to be. I see us spending our lives pushing each other further, neither of us satisfied until the other is ahead. Right now, we don’t have a lot, but I promise you baby boy, we will be extraordinary. I know this in our very beginning.

Once upon a time, I was very afraid that I would not be able to recognize love when it found me. I hardly even realized that I’ve been preparing myself for this. Every day I dreamed of having you, before I even knew who you were has brought me to this moment where I can hardly keep my eyes from watering enough to get to the next sentence. Being in love and being loved feels so good. I wish everyone in the world could experience even half, even a quarter of our love; the world would definitely be a much better place.

I have received more love, care and consideration from you in twelve months then I’ve known in my entire lifetime. They say that you should treat others how you wish to be treated, and this is so true because the very love you have given me is what I have used to love you in return. Your love, intense, yet playful, innocent and pure, it fills me with peace, contentment, and tranquility. It is always just enough. I can only hope that the love I give you will always fulfill you with happiness and joy, I’m never going to stop loving you. I will spend the rest of my life loving you. I love you forever and always.

Happy Anniversary Baby Boy